Forgetting Things

It all started off with my putting off having fun. "I'll do it after I finish this one assignment." "I'll go watch a movie after I finish this wave of exams." I keep delaying it, and delaying it, and now I'm at a point where I don't even remember what fun feels like. I don't know what I'd do if I had all the time in the world. I used to be full of ideas.

What happened to me? Why am I such a dud lately?

Caroline used to say things like "I want to reinvent myself." I love that word, reinvent. It's so refreshing.

I'm so sick of school right now. I feel like I've been riding a carrousel for a million years, and now I'm brimming with vomit and dying of nausea. I'm so sick and tired of everything, everyone, and did I already say everything?

Why am I so frustrated?

Oh yeah, this post was supposed to be about how I forgot how to have fun. Maybe having some fun would do me good. Mall of America tomorrow, anyone?